God and everyone close to me hates me and they betray me. Why??

I had faced a lot off difficulties. And every time people I like betray me. And end result is that, their relative ask me if I am the bad guy, if I hurt them. In fact people around me do things that hurt me. And my heart breaks into pieces. I think when god made me he was angry at some one. And I am his/her way of taking out anger. U know I think god is a lady cause right now I feel like god is a *****! If I ever see her I will try my best free you all from this *****!!